This is a little different blog than my typical posts. Obstacle Course Racing is a very physically demanding sport. It takes a lot of discipline and training. I have a 16 year old who has found this as an outlet to relieve stress. She was introduced to the sport when my best friend and her family showed her a course a year ago and had the privilege of going with them last year to be a spectator at World Championships in Canada. Since then she has completely involved her life in the sport. Training at a gym here in Nashua, Train180 3-4 days a week and 1 day a one on one session with her coach. Since her first race Spartan Fenway Sprint last November she was determined to make it to 2017 OCR World Championships again in Canada. She worked hard and at her first (and each race following) she qualified for World Championships. She worked hard and put everything she had into training for these races and maintained perfect grades throughout the year. She also made time to maintain her status with the Nashua YMCA Leaders Program and doing multiple volunteer events for them. The deal we came to throughout the year was that the only way she could race was if she volunteered at each race to receive a free race credit. She did with enthusiasm. She recently received her trifecta which is a Beast (she completed in 7 hours and blew our socks off at her time), a Super (again, against the worst conditions completed and still qualified for world championships) and a sprint (which she came in 1st for her age group and finish in 39 minutes). In the Sprint that she just completed she qualified for 2018 World Championships in London, England!! I originally told her that she was going to have to forego that because I am a single mom with 2 teenage kids and love my job but don't make enough to get us to the UK in October 2018. She informed me she was going and she was going to everything she could to go! She has started a gofundme account. She is applying everywhere she can to get a job. She has also started making friendship bracelets that she is selling for $2. Along with that to help her 50% of all of Purple Zen sales (products and services) will be going to her fund. Both her brother and I are incredibly proud of her and everything she has accomplished and now she is doing everything she can to tackle 2018 OCR World Championships in London, England, UK!
We would greatly appreciate any help to get her there and to see her dream become reality! For purchasing Purple Zen's products services: https://www.facebook.com/pg/purplezenajna/shop For Bracelets you can email me at: [email protected] For Annally's gofundme page and more about her racing and her why: www.gofundme.com/annallys-london-ocr-world-championships Take a minute and check out Annally's OCR Instagram Page!!! instagram.com/annally_ocr
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Now this is a fun post! This is just merely my impression of Mercury retrograde....my nemesis! Some of you may know about Mercury Retrograde and its wonderful affects!!! From April 9 – May 3, 2017 Mercury will be in Retrograde while in earth-sign Taurus, to fire-sign Aries. Now it's been in a shadow phase since March 27th. So you may have noticed a few of it's delightful signs......I have!!
Mercury rules all types of communication Including: listening speaking learning reading editing researching negotiating selling buying Mercury also rules all formal contracts and agreements, as well as important documents such as book manuscripts or term papers, agreements, deeds, contracts, leases, wills, and so forth. I strongly recommend you DO NOT do any of the above until after Mercury goes direct! Since Mercury rules the mail and the conveyance of information, be extra careful when sending important documents. This also goes for email! So confirm whoever you are sending these emails too DID indeed go to the intended recipient! Last year my ENTIRE email server went down and I was unable to send or receive emails for about a week!!! Not a fun thing!!!! You will notice miscommunication will be ALL over the place! Whether it be with your kids, family, friends, clients it's gonna happen! You are going to have to laugh it off! And just reside to the fact your life is going to go upside down. And when it does what should you do? Grab a glass of wine, beer, coffee, tea water.....Whatever your drink of choice is and just accept it! Mercury retrograde periods are famous for causing computers to crash and for machines, appliances, and other electronic devices to show signs of wear, requiring urgent repair. Backup your computer in advance. Weird things happen during these periods. If you are driving any long distance during a period where Mercury is retrograde, bring extra maps (or make sure your GPS is up to date), make sure you have enough gas, and check that you have the correct address and clear driving instructions. On one of my jobs that I had to go to 3 separate times during Mercury Retrograde. GPS took me 6 different ways and it wouldn't have been so bad if I had a clue as to where I was at!! I got very lost coming home one of the times and Mercury Retrograde heard some not nice words come out of my mouth!! So my words of advice from April 9th-May 3rd hang on folks....it's gonna be a bumpy annoying ride....And from March 26-April 8 (pre-shadow) and from May 4-21 (post shadow) it may be a little off. Grab your drink of choice and enjoy the ride! And just keep in mind........after these dates, if things go wacky....it's all you! So this is a very impromptu blog post. I am always talking about positivity but I know we are all human! I try every morning to wake up with a positive thought....to make the day start out good. Well today that didn't happen. And yes my day started off on a crappy note. I was abruptly woken up by an issue I don't care to discuss lol and didn't get my moment of waking my way. So after an argument erupted, again a way I choose not to start my day (but having teenage kids this isn't always a luxury) I decided we were not going anywhere in this early spring snow storm Mother Nature decided to drop on us in New England. Which created an even worse argument, my blood pressure was soaring and I had only been awake 3.5 minutes at this point. Now typically I would tell my clients to take another few minutes to yourself and clear your head.....Ok your day didn't start out the way you like so stop now and change that. I was so worked up that clearing my head was furthest from my mind! So made my tea and the pick pick pick at me continued....remember teenage kids....not getting what they want.....NOT a good combination! At which point my mother calls (She used to call me a badger when I was my daughters age) I told her the situation and apologized for all those times I "badgered" her. She laughed and quickly hearing the tension in my voice got off the phone with me. So I sit down with my tea and computer to get ready to hunker down and am actually looking forward to nothing to do.....Hmmmmmm maybe now is the time I should've restarted my day....but no, I didn't. My cell phone goes off it's my son who stayed at his friends last night. "Hey are you home?" "Yup we are not going anywhere today and when you get to work text me to let me know you got there ok....the roads are horrible!" "Ahhhhh can you come help dig me out? I am stuck in his driveway" "On my way"
I HATE driving in the snow!!! I have done it too many times, seen too many accidents....I prefer to stay put but when it's your son you go. I threw on clothes grabbed shovels jumped in my 2 wheel drive rear wheel drive truck (another reason I hate driving in the snow) annnnnnd got stuck in my driveway. Now I am stressed! How am I going to get him out of his friends driveway if I can't get out of my own. Well somehow, someway with out AAA I managed to get out....AND got to him and got him out with 3 teenagers pushing and me behind the wheel. So I knew when I came home before I pulled in I needed to snowblow or we would have the same situation tomorrow. And you guess it....putting the snow blower away....it got stuck out front. That was the moment of YUP I AM THROWING IN THE TOWEL FOR TODAY. Shut off the snowblower, which will remain where it is at until this melts tomorrow, walked inside and made a cup of tea. It was then that I said ok I am starting this day over and taking a breath and thinking about the positives of today. *My son is safe at work *My daughter and I are safe and warm at home *The driveway is snowblowed *Sandbar/lake season is right around the corner (a month away until memorial day) *I am starting a job I have dreamed about for years on Monday! The point of this post is because we are all human. We all have bad days but a bad day doesn't make for a bad life. Find a minute in your day to be thankful! Don't ruin tomorrow because of today! Let me start off this blog with a little information about Venus Retrograde. "Old friends or lovers may reappear or you may relive past life experiences in order to sort out karmic issues. As Venus also rules money, it’s traditionally thought that Venus retrograde is not an ideal time for investing or buying luxury items.' -Astrology King. So with that being said let me add my twist to that.
I had a relationship that lasted 6 years. It was for the most part a good relationship. However, there were some bad times. Unfortunately, those bad times were BAD. Over the course of the last year, I have forgiven him. To the point that I saw and remembered the good times. And realized, I didn't hate him. Over the past 6 months I saw the signs that he was going to contact me, his name popped up in weird places, a name I was associated with him came up and so on and so forth. But in normal Laura fashion, I ignored them. Well, Venus retrograde struck and I received an email. Now I saw the name come up on my email and I braced myself. I thought to myself...you idiot why do you ignore the signs? So I stared at the notification for a few minutes. Knowing that it was going to be full of excuses. So curiosity got the best of me. I opened it. WOAH, not even close to what I was expecting. A very sincere apology. Outlining everything. I was shocked. And even a little relieved. I responded nicely and told him I forgave him and I didn't hate him. I had expected the emails to stop after that. Well they didn't. We went back and forth catching each other up on what we were up to and discussing the past and asking questions and receiving answers. We have spent time together and enjoyed each other and again cleared up the past. Even laughed about some of the bad times. Now anyone in my past would think I was crazy for even "entertaining" his email. However, it has been nice. I forgive easily. I don't hold grudges. I have changed a lot, for the better. Why can't someone else? Especially when they truly want to change. I haven't completely come out and told people we were talking again and because of Venus retrograde that will probably wait until the middle of May before I truly decide what I am going to do. For the time being I am going to enjoy the time we do have together and wait and see how this plays out. According to research he showed up to teach me something or he is here for good. My point of this blog is retrogrades are legitimate. There is a reason things come up during these time periods. Take this time to grow and learn. That is what they are there for! I am definitely paying attention what Saturn and Jupiter have in store for me as they are also in Retrograde right now :-) In my house we don't hold grudges. Or at least I try not to. Over the weekend we had a rough go. My daughter and I were at each other's throat. We are under a lot of pressure here and I think it all came to a head. I had to get in my truck and go for a ride. I always use music as my outlet and as we were cleaning this weekend I found an old iPod. I plugged in my iPod and drove around for an hour clearing my head. When a song came on that hit me like a ton of bricks! I went back and got my daughter and told her to get in the truck. I told her to listen to these word....absorb them.
F ing perfect P!nk Made a wrong turn, once or twiceDug my way out, blood and fire Bad decisions, that's alright Welcome to my silly life Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood Miss "No way, it's all good", it didn't slow me down Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated Look, I'm still around Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever ever feel Like you're less than fuckin' perfect Pretty pretty please, if you ever, ever feel like you're nothing You're fuckin' perfect to me! You're so mean, when you talk, about yourself you were wrong Change the voices in your head, make them like you instead So complicated, look how big, you'll make it Filled with so much hatred, such a tired game It's enough! I've done all I can think of Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same Oh, pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel Like you're less than fuckin' perfect Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel like you're nothing You're fuckin' perfect to me The whole world's scared, so I swallow the fear The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer So cool and limed and we try, try, try But we try too hard and its a waste of my time Done looking for the critics 'cause there everywhere They don't like my jeans, they don't get my hair Exchange ourselves and we do it all the time Why do we do that, why do I do that? Why do I do that? Oh, pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel Like you're less than fuckin' perfect Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel like you're nothing You're fuckin' perfect to me! You're perfect, you're perfect Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel like you're nothing You're fuckin' perfect to me My daughter has struggled with self esteem and thinking she isn't worth anything and that sparked our argument. This song hit a major cord with me in regards to her! She IS perfect to ME! At one point she was mistreated, misplaced and misunderstood but to me she is perfect! As a parent I feel like I have the right to be angry at words that were said. But I don't have the right or the power to hold it over head and hold a grudge. What is that going to do? It's going to make their insecurities worse. Feeling like they can't release their frustrations to you because you'll hold it over their head. She is 15. She is hormonal and stressed. Both my kids have jumped hurdles they should never be expected to jump. They are going to crack. They are going to snap at you. Let them get angry....but also let them know they also have to respect. My opinion is the worst thing we can do is hold a grudge with our kids. If you hold a grudge they will feel as if they aren't safe to express their stress (with respect). I woke up yesterday morning to a new day. We talked about everything that had happened and we both know life is too short to hold grudges. About 8 months ago I realized and was told I might be histamine intolerant. Some of the signs were feeling nauseous after eating, headaches, no energy, bloated all the time, dizzy and all around feeling like crap. Everything I ate was processed, high sodium, high sugar and I very rarely ate a home cooked meal. Well I looked into A LOT! Sure enough everything I had going on with me was what I was reading about! So I decided to change my diet! Worst case it didn't work! I started eating home cooked meals with no artificial ingredients. Grass feed beef grain fed chicken no hormones. Fresh veggies. I started with no dairy but slowly added it back in and I can now have milk and some cheeses. I absolutely love the way I feel now! I know instantly when I have eaten something I shouldn't have. It's not as hard as I originally had thought it would be. If you need suggestions let me know I have a bunch of recipes I use. And if you need someone to cook for you...my best friend does that and her meals I can eat! She was a real life saver in the beginning! Have a great day! Make it one to remember!
Happy New Years everyone!! Did you breathe a sigh of relief at 12:01 am? I know I did! 2016 was in numerology terms a 9 year. The numerological calendar is in 9 cycles. So last year (2+0+1+6=9) was a year of endings. And I know it was for me! A friendship I had for over 20 years ended without a second thought. I ended a personal family hell that involved my children. I ended my ongoing cycle of self abuse. It was a challenging year to set in place, all the lessons you learned, for the new beginnings for 2017!
2017 is a 1 year (2+0+1+7=10 1+0=1) this is a year of new beginnings. Take everything you learned from last year and apply it to this year! This year is of new interests, experiences, goals, and understandings: about life, about you, where you have been, where you are now, and where you would like to be. Expect change this year! If you sage smudge today is a great day for that! But more so over the next couple days:
Last year was so difficult for me personally I am excited for a fresh start. When I woke up this morning I felt relieved and excited! Get excited about this year! And keep in mind your thoughts and feelings control what you receive. So keep it positive! You are the ONLY one in charge of the outcome of your year. As soon as a negative thought comes into your mind instantly change it! Make it positive! There is a positive in every situation! Just look and you will find it! Now that the holidays are over, it's back to business as usual. And that business for me is sharing what I have learned to get thru my life. And The Law of Attraction is one of those. The law of attraction is attracting what you want. If you see it you can have it. It's about positive attracting positive. Negative attracting negative.
Over the years I have caught myself saying my life sucks and sure enough things get worse. I have been working hard at changing my thinking. It's not an easy task. And it became apparent up until about a week before christmas. I have hated christmas for a long time and dread it. My law of attractraction was working amazingly all up until I got completely involved in reminding myself how badly I hated christmas. Like a light switch my law of attraction "stopped working" so I thought. But sitting here today I realized it hasn't. I changed my thinking. I went from thinking and attracting positive to thinking and attracting negative. So, back on track with the law of attraction. A few tips to get back on track is I listen to a lot of motivational speakers. Tony Robbins being my favorite! I found a few playlists on YouTube that I love! I will list them below. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TEoG_5vV9A8&list=PL7LdlDb7qb1v-WCTtXiVD_PzLIqD6UbCf https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ttaCRCnLuHM&list=PL9ZP573K6rLk7Dd_2gtCD0-5MlLsGCLRs https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9UqWXw8WmSo&list=PLDFDOVz-ciAcNbLtaAyLPEHXcUJUc3n-N I have found that motivational speaking pumps you up! Makes you excited about whatever you're trying to be positive about. Positive attracks positive! Don't doubt yourself. If you doubt yourself you are attracing that doubt into yourlife. You (and I) Have always been told that only the rich get richer and the poor get poorer. Think about that....why do the rich get richer? They don't get richer because they are smarter.... They get richer because they are more confident in themselve's. They attracted the confidence to bring on that client. They got richer because they knew what they could achieve. Why do the poor get poorer? Think about this....and I am ABSOLUTELY quilty on this! When you are low on money you are depressed and you think I will never get out of this whole...so what do you do? You attract more negative! I have been there! I know! But I also have been so confident that the money came in (positive attracting positive), but I took advantage of the money coming in and that's when it changes. I assumed the money would always come. And stopped being thankful for it. Then it slowed and I became fearful and thought it was never going to change (negative attracting negative). How do you change your mind path? It takes alot of forcing. But you have to force positive thoughts. You have to constantly be aware of your thoughts. For the next 2 weeks I am going to be keeping a journal of all the ways the law of attraction has worked for me. And as silly as the following sound using them works. Here is a list of the few affirmations I use. Plus a vision board helps too. To have something to see makes it easier. Keep in mind not only do you have to think positive, you have to feel positive and visualize the outcome. Good luck with the law attraction! One little side note.....The first thought you think in the morning is the path you set for the day. The last thought you think before sleep sets into your brain as a belief. KEEP IT POSITIVE. And always, ALWAYS be thankful for everything you have in your life! Money comes to me easily and freely I am successful I am happy I am thankful for my family My business is a success. I can get you a much longer list if you are interested plus more playlists. Email me at [email protected] Think positive and remember you are worth it! Just getting home and comfortable from another Christmas Eve spent with my family. This year as I had stated in my previous blog has been difficult. However, I woke up this morning reminding myself I am thankful.
Thankful for a family that has always been there for me, for us. Thankful I have a family.....period....I am reminded some do not have that. I am thankful for friends. Some of my friends I have had for years and cherish that they have been there through the tough and stayed. Some of my friends have been in the background for a few years, some very recent, but over this past year are friends that I can not imagine mine or my kids life with out them. I am thankful for the relationships that ended throughout this year. No that was not meant to be mean. It was just meant as it is. I am thankful for those relationships to show me that everything can come to an end and to cherish every moment. I am thankful for my kids....they teach me new things every day. Christmas is not about the gifts. It's about appreciating the gifts you have in front of you. Christmas is about giving a peice of yourself to your loved ones. It's a time to remember the ones who were a present to you who are no longer physically here. It is a time to love each and every person who has touched your life. Take this Christmas to appreciate all you have. You will find happiness in this. And that is a gift in itself. Merry Christmas my friends! Every year from when I was a young kid I loved chrismas! The memories of being so excited that santa was on his way! Christmas eve was quite and event in my italian household. Although we didn't have a large italian gathering it was very italian! We had lasagna, pasta, sauce and meatballs and breads. My mother's parents would come, they were my world! I adored my grandparents! I remember my mother making my grandfather 3 castagnas (roasted chestnuts) he loved those every year! For anyone who met my grandmother (Nona, Old Lady, Grammy) she was always the entertainment! She added life to my soul. My sisters job was to make pies, her baking was and still is out of this world! My one and only job was to take the red and green cherries and put them on tooth picks :-) I loved doing that! I got so excited! My parents always did all they could to make christmas magical! And it was!
In 1996 my grandfather passed away from cancer. Being 16 and losing someone that close to you from a horrible disease you don't know if you are ever going to be the same again. That christmas was when it all changed. I remember christmas eve that year being so sad and just wanting it to end. I had all the memories of the happiness and excitment and knowing what to expect from moment to moment. That year it was different. I wanted to see my grandfathers face when my mom took the castagnas out of the oven. She still made them that year and for a few years after. But they just sat there. He wasn't there to eat them. The years following were just a repeat of 1995. In 1999 I got married and had our first child, a son. This year was going to be different! I was determined to make it different! I wanted my kids to have what my parents gave to us to experience! I tried so hard that year to muster all the christmas spirit I had in me! We had no money. I was a stay at home mom he was an auto technician. We lived in a small little apartment but I gave it my all! Our marriage was not good even at that point. But I wasn't going to let that stop me. Well it did. Christmas put such a stress on top of a stressful marriage. Arguing about the gifts and christmas decorations. And who's parents house we were going to go to and when. It became an ordeal year after year. I wanted to be little again! Experience the christmas excitment! We stayed together for 5 more years and had one more child, my daughter. When we divorced, like most, not a pleasant one. I stayed at my parents for a bit and that christmas was filled with a different stress on top of being not so rich. Now I had the challenge of sharing my time with the kids with their father. As the years progressed that challenge got worse and the argument on splitting time at christmas break started well before Thanksgiving. Some years were financially better than others. Some years finacially just SUCKED! The spirit was GONE! Can I please just go back to being a kid! This year 12 years later! It has been pretty much the same but added to it, we lost my Nona, My old lady, my best friend, the one I went to with all my secrets. Then just a couple months ago we lost my Papa (my dad's father), who over the past few years spent every holiday with us. I gained full custody of my kids. Which I am above and beyond thankful for! My kids are my world! But financially it is the worst one I have had in a very long time. I try to hide my worries from my kids. Sometimes I am extremely unsuccessful! I was in the kitchen crying (softly) frustrated and my 15 year old daughter came over to me and hugged me (for anyone who understands the struggles I went thru with not being able to get a hug because of our situation, THIS WAS HUGE! And I appreciate and soak in every hug I get now :-) <3 ) and said "Mom its not about the gifts. It's about spending time with family. Its about making things from your heart". I heard her but I still felt like I had failed all these years. Not being able to give them what my parents had given my sister and I. Last night I came home to house full of handmade cards. We couldn't afford to get our friends and family gifts this year and she knew this so she made the most beautiful hand made cards! Each filled with a letter to the recipient appreciating them. I cried reading them. This is what christmas is! Not gifts....not money...LOVE! I have 4 days to find the Christmas love in my heart! I am determined to make this year the best year ever for my kids! They deserve it! I Deserve it! I remembered something I had learned earlier this year in my year of growing. Music has always been a huge part of my life. I learned that music recorded at 528hz is the vibration of Love and because I was so desperate to get my mood lifted I googled Christmas music recorded at 528hz. And found this! https://youtu.be/782_44F6NFQ and although there are no words. I sing the words in my head and am loving the spirit! So as I sit hear crying (thankful happy tears) and listen to christmas music. I am thankful for my kids! More than they know! And I am thankful for my friends and family! Merry Christmas everyone! Enjoy your families! |
AuthorHi there! I am new to the blogging thing so bare with me. I have had a long path at life and this year I decided to change that. The Law Of Attraction right? Positive thinking brings positve action. This blog is about the research I have done on making my life better. Archives
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