So this is a very impromptu blog post. I am always talking about positivity but I know we are all human! I try every morning to wake up with a positive thought....to make the day start out good. Well today that didn't happen. And yes my day started off on a crappy note. I was abruptly woken up by an issue I don't care to discuss lol and didn't get my moment of waking my way. So after an argument erupted, again a way I choose not to start my day (but having teenage kids this isn't always a luxury) I decided we were not going anywhere in this early spring snow storm Mother Nature decided to drop on us in New England. Which created an even worse argument, my blood pressure was soaring and I had only been awake 3.5 minutes at this point. Now typically I would tell my clients to take another few minutes to yourself and clear your head.....Ok your day didn't start out the way you like so stop now and change that. I was so worked up that clearing my head was furthest from my mind! So made my tea and the pick pick pick at me continued....remember teenage kids....not getting what they want.....NOT a good combination! At which point my mother calls (She used to call me a badger when I was my daughters age) I told her the situation and apologized for all those times I "badgered" her. She laughed and quickly hearing the tension in my voice got off the phone with me. So I sit down with my tea and computer to get ready to hunker down and am actually looking forward to nothing to do.....Hmmmmmm maybe now is the time I should've restarted my day....but no, I didn't. My cell phone goes off it's my son who stayed at his friends last night. "Hey are you home?" "Yup we are not going anywhere today and when you get to work text me to let me know you got there ok....the roads are horrible!" "Ahhhhh can you come help dig me out? I am stuck in his driveway" "On my way"
I HATE driving in the snow!!! I have done it too many times, seen too many accidents....I prefer to stay put but when it's your son you go. I threw on clothes grabbed shovels jumped in my 2 wheel drive rear wheel drive truck (another reason I hate driving in the snow) annnnnnd got stuck in my driveway. Now I am stressed! How am I going to get him out of his friends driveway if I can't get out of my own. Well somehow, someway with out AAA I managed to get out....AND got to him and got him out with 3 teenagers pushing and me behind the wheel. So I knew when I came home before I pulled in I needed to snowblow or we would have the same situation tomorrow. And you guess it....putting the snow blower away....it got stuck out front. That was the moment of YUP I AM THROWING IN THE TOWEL FOR TODAY. Shut off the snowblower, which will remain where it is at until this melts tomorrow, walked inside and made a cup of tea. It was then that I said ok I am starting this day over and taking a breath and thinking about the positives of today. *My son is safe at work *My daughter and I are safe and warm at home *The driveway is snowblowed *Sandbar/lake season is right around the corner (a month away until memorial day) *I am starting a job I have dreamed about for years on Monday! The point of this post is because we are all human. We all have bad days but a bad day doesn't make for a bad life. Find a minute in your day to be thankful! Don't ruin tomorrow because of today!
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In my house we don't hold grudges. Or at least I try not to. Over the weekend we had a rough go. My daughter and I were at each other's throat. We are under a lot of pressure here and I think it all came to a head. I had to get in my truck and go for a ride. I always use music as my outlet and as we were cleaning this weekend I found an old iPod. I plugged in my iPod and drove around for an hour clearing my head. When a song came on that hit me like a ton of bricks! I went back and got my daughter and told her to get in the truck. I told her to listen to these word....absorb them.
F ing perfect P!nk Made a wrong turn, once or twiceDug my way out, blood and fire Bad decisions, that's alright Welcome to my silly life Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood Miss "No way, it's all good", it didn't slow me down Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated Look, I'm still around Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever ever feel Like you're less than fuckin' perfect Pretty pretty please, if you ever, ever feel like you're nothing You're fuckin' perfect to me! You're so mean, when you talk, about yourself you were wrong Change the voices in your head, make them like you instead So complicated, look how big, you'll make it Filled with so much hatred, such a tired game It's enough! I've done all I can think of Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same Oh, pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel Like you're less than fuckin' perfect Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel like you're nothing You're fuckin' perfect to me The whole world's scared, so I swallow the fear The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer So cool and limed and we try, try, try But we try too hard and its a waste of my time Done looking for the critics 'cause there everywhere They don't like my jeans, they don't get my hair Exchange ourselves and we do it all the time Why do we do that, why do I do that? Why do I do that? Oh, pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel Like you're less than fuckin' perfect Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel like you're nothing You're fuckin' perfect to me! You're perfect, you're perfect Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel like you're nothing You're fuckin' perfect to me My daughter has struggled with self esteem and thinking she isn't worth anything and that sparked our argument. This song hit a major cord with me in regards to her! She IS perfect to ME! At one point she was mistreated, misplaced and misunderstood but to me she is perfect! As a parent I feel like I have the right to be angry at words that were said. But I don't have the right or the power to hold it over head and hold a grudge. What is that going to do? It's going to make their insecurities worse. Feeling like they can't release their frustrations to you because you'll hold it over their head. She is 15. She is hormonal and stressed. Both my kids have jumped hurdles they should never be expected to jump. They are going to crack. They are going to snap at you. Let them get angry....but also let them know they also have to respect. My opinion is the worst thing we can do is hold a grudge with our kids. If you hold a grudge they will feel as if they aren't safe to express their stress (with respect). I woke up yesterday morning to a new day. We talked about everything that had happened and we both know life is too short to hold grudges. |
AuthorHi there! I am new to the blogging thing so bare with me. I have had a long path at life and this year I decided to change that. The Law Of Attraction right? Positive thinking brings positve action. This blog is about the research I have done on making my life better. Archives
November 2017
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